Idgie (feenietime) wrote,
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Rant time!

Okay, it's been a while since my last wangsty post... Although I'm not sure if this qualifies as wangst, it's equally annoying, so consider that fair warning.

Everyone who's known me for a while should know I love drawing, but I haven't been doing it a lot lately because it depresses me. I'm not good at it. And before you protest, I kindly request that you shut the hel up. I'm not looking for compliments here. I genuinely feel that it's not something I'm good at, therefore I don't do it as often as I used to. The thing is, though, I WANT to... I really miss drawing fanart. So... I should take a class to better myself, right?

Well, here's where I get very stupid. I believe I'm afraid to take drawing and/or anatomy classes.

Yeah, I told you it was stupid.

See, I think I'm scared that I'll take a class... and I'll still suck. At least, for now (and for the last few years... hell, for all of my life), I can hide behind the excuse that I've never had instructions, but what if I suck because I'm just not good at it? I don't want to find out. Isn't that the dumbest thing you've ever heard of? I think it's the most ridiculous, detrimental thing I've ever done to myself. I had so many dreams of doing something art-wise, and I gave it all up because I'm afraid I won't be good at it? I've never even given myself the chance... how stupid am I?

I should be taking classes right now. I could be. Mt. SAC is just around the corner... They have drawing classes all the time.

I probably won't.
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