May 11th, 2006

[Evo] Kurt - OH SHIT



I.. I just can't put it down... I have the very beginning of Nothing Else Matters (the first few tabs... is that what you'd call it? I don't know guitar terminology) down, and I'm determined to learn the whole thing. I'M GOING TO!!!

What's wrong with me?! Didn't I learn with the piano? I don't get any emotional pleasure out of playing a musical instrument! It's just a toy and then I lose interest and... yeah.. I WANT TO TOUCH IT MORE.

Seriously. I really like playing the stupid thing. But this interest will only last for a little while, I'm sure. Right? I have no interest in getting a guitar of my own or taking lessons. I don't. Really.

Yeah. Couple months, I'll be over it.

*eyes guitar while Tif sleeps* ...soon, my love. While she's at work, I'll take you out and caress you softly. It'll be our secret.
  • Current Music
    "Nothing Else Matters" - Metllica
[SE] Patti - no use it's dead

Rant time!

Okay, it's been a while since my last wangsty post... Although I'm not sure if this qualifies as wangst, it's equally annoying, so consider that fair warning.

Everyone who's known me for a while should know I love drawing, but I haven't been doing it a lot lately because it depresses me. I'm not good at it. And before you protest, I kindly request that you shut the hel up. I'm not looking for compliments here. I genuinely feel that it's not something I'm good at, therefore I don't do it as often as I used to. The thing is, though, I WANT to... I really miss drawing fanart. So... I should take a class to better myself, right?

Well, here's where I get very stupid. I believe I'm afraid to take drawing and/or anatomy classes.

Yeah, I told you it was stupid.

See, I think I'm scared that I'll take a class... and I'll still suck. At least, for now (and for the last few years... hell, for all of my life), I can hide behind the excuse that I've never had instructions, but what if I suck because I'm just not good at it? I don't want to find out. Isn't that the dumbest thing you've ever heard of? I think it's the most ridiculous, detrimental thing I've ever done to myself. I had so many dreams of doing something art-wise, and I gave it all up because I'm afraid I won't be good at it? I've never even given myself the chance... how stupid am I?

I should be taking classes right now. I could be. Mt. SAC is just around the corner... They have drawing classes all the time.

I probably won't.
  • Current Music
    Nothing Else Matters... it's in my head!
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[SE] Patti - no use it's dead


I got 2/7 of those doodles done. I don't feel like making a post for each one, though, and I don't know when I'll complete them all, so if you wanna see them, check this post.

Yes, I'm aware that I'm slow. Blame Sims 2 and Tif's guitar. >_>

On a totally different note, my Portishead CD came in the mail today! WH00T! *plays*
  • Current Music
    "Nothing Else Matters" - Metallica
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